We’re taking a step into Mark’s world, where he opens up about the challenges and aspirations he’s facing on the road to becoming a father.
Hey There You!
Today has been on my mind a puzzle I can’t quite solve. Emily and I had a disagreement, and it’s left me feeling more than just frustrated – it’s left me feeling a mixture of incompetence and uncertainty.
Before I go on, let me make one thing clear – I want to be an involved dad. Scratch that, I want to be a super involved dad. I want to be there for all the diaper changes, the late-night feedings, the first steps, and all the countless moments that make up our little one’s journey.
But here’s the catch – every time I try to pitch in, to do something my way, it’s as if Emily’s shadow looms over me. She’s read all the books, done all the research, and she has this air of authority that I can’t seem to shake off.
It’s not that I don’t appreciate her knowledge or that I want to disregard what she’s learned. But there’s something about the way she corrects me, the way she makes it seem like there’s only one right way to do things, that gets under my skin.
And I get it – Emily is excited, and she’s just trying to share what she’s learned. But sometimes, it feels like her way or no way. And it’s making me doubt myself as a future dad.
Emily’s intentions are pure, I know that. She wants what’s best for our baby, and I respect that. But I also want to find my own way of doing things, to put my own spin on this whole parenting thing.
It’s a tough spot to be in. On one hand, I want to be supportive, to be a team with Emily as we navigate this new chapter. But on the other hand, I don’t want to feel like I’m just a supporting character in her story.
I want to find the balance, to communicate with Emily in a way that lets her know I want to be involved, that I’m eager to learn and grow as a parent alongside her.
Tomorrow is a new day, and while I wish I could simply shake off this frustration, I feel myself retreating instead. I’ll just call it a day, probably go to a bar and watch a game so I can forget about all this. I don’t think I can just sit around.